What Captures My Soul

I’ve been playing on Spotify a lot lately. It’s a site where you can listen to any kind of music your heart desires….FREE! At least on your desktop. If you want to download the app onto your phone, that’s free, but, to listen to the music on your phone, there is a monthly fee.

I have a couple of play-lists that I’ve made, including a set of songs that sounds like I’ve just called into the Delilah radio show requesting every hopeless romantic love song there is. But, hey, a good ballad is good for the soul. Or sometimes not. Because sometimes that ballad takes you back to that day when your heart got crushed by your “soul-mate” and left you sitting in your car….alone…..and every song that came across the radio had he-doesn’t-love-you words darting your heart even more. We’ve all been there, right?

As a young girl, I would sit in my bedroom and listen to music any chance I could get. And I would write out all of the lyrics of all the songs that I enjoyed the most. Which then led me to write my own words, my own lyrics. Being involved with a variety of choirs, and as my dad being a “music man”, I knew that music and songs were something that I wanted to dig deeper into.

I have spiral notebooks filled with lyrics that I had kept in secret for years. I wrote in silence mainly because I didn’t know where to go from there. Until one day I got the bright idea to email David Foster, a well known and respected songwriter. He never replied back. It’s ok. He’s a busy guy.

I took a break from writing. But, when we moved to Nashville, Music City, USA, I thought, “Maybe this is it. This is God’s way of showing me to get back into writing.” So, I wrote up a few new lyrics, brushed up a couple of old ones and had a friend who is in the music industry take a look at them. He liked what I wrote. In fact we did put a song together. But, nothing came of it. Which is fine. I kept writing.

But, then I stopped. Again. Life with 4 kids was happening and I was tired of rejection.

With friends in the industry, it’s not easy as I thought it would be.

So, here I am today, in 2012, listening to Spotify to keep up with new tunes from outstanding artists and listening to old tunes that take me back to good and bad days.

Listening to these songs has given me the itch to write again. Music truly seeps into my soul and embraces the joys and sorrows that are rooted deep down. The words alone in a song invade and captures my passion for music.

This passion has not gone away. It’s still there. It’s time to open up my heart again.

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Burst

I’m about to burst.

I’ve been having waves of emotions hit me left and right these past few days from various situations that are currently in this season of my life.

I don’t know what I’ll burst into or out of. But, it’s there. On the verge.

The bursting could be….

laughter

tears

panic

joy

song

fear

the bubble from my gum 

It may even  just be my pants from all of the leftover Easter candy that I’ve been inhaling!

Either way, whichever one it is; I’m going to burst.

 

 

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I Don’t Want To Forget Her

Last week an unexpected, yet, answered prayer happened. I was able to fly to Denver to visit my mom and a few of my siblings, thanks to my husband’s boss whom couldn’t use her ticket voucher that had to be used last week. So, she generously offered it to us.

My total time there was an exact 48 hours, I’m not complaining, because any given or free given amount of time to spend with my family is precious.

My brother Tracey, who has been recently diagnosed with an ascending aortic aneurysm (please pray for him) picked me up from the airport. I drove his Jeep in the snowy, slushy weather to the nursing home where my mom has been for the past 2-3 years.

Arrived at the nursing home and walked to her room. She was lying in her bed sleeping. I gently whispered, “mom. mom.” with a soft patting on her leg. She opened her eyes with a large gasp and a “Oh honey!” I hugged her and cried my eyes out. She didn’t cry. Since her stroke, she hasn’t shown much of a tearful emotion. Which may be a good thing, otherwise it would be an ugly mess every time one of us kids leaves the nursing home!

We walked around the nursing home. She introduced me to all the staff and her friends and pointed out the ones that are “trouble”. I showed her pictures of the princess and 3 jesters. She doesn’t remember their names or ages. She also didn’t remember my husband’s name.

I went back to the nursing home the next day with my brother and sister. We took our mom to lunch and had fun reminiscing about our childhood. I loved seeing my mom laugh while we shared our stories. She also shared of what she remembers of all of her 7 children and the trouble we, I mean the other 6 would get into. I’m the 7th child, the baby, so of course, I was the most well-behaved. 😉

My time with my mom was short. But, I soaked in every second I had with her.

I hated to leave her.

I don’t like that she has to be in that nursing home.

Being miles away from her, it’s sometimes easy to play out of sight, out of mind.

I don’t want to forget her, before she forgets me. 

It hurts not being a consistent, every day role in her life. It hurts that she doesn’t know her grandchildren. And that they don’t know her.

I don’t know how much longer she has with us. Or when the day comes when she really won’t know who we are, if she ever gets to that point of  illness.

Having lost my father while miles apart. It bothers me that I will have to live through that again with my mom.

Until I can get back to Denver to see her, I’m thankful for the phone calls I can make to her and the Skype calls I get while she is with one of my siblings. Yay! Technology!

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It’s Just Another Site

I am sure you’ve heard of Pinterest, right? If not, then you’re either still in Winter hibernation or just in denial. I love this site because it helps me figure out meal plans, crafts for the kids, how I want to organize/clean/decorate my house and play dress up in my virtual closet. Fun and fancy, right?! But, now, I’ve been lingering at similar sites.

This first one is foodgawker. Where you can find bajillions of recipes in every category you can imagine. We all need to eat, right?

Second; craftgawker. Where you can explore and excel in the possibilities of becoming the craftiest person ever!

Third; dwellinggawker. Need to spice up the bedroom? Add some flare to your kitchen? This site will help you get fabulous ideas that you want to decorate your house.

And finally, if you are planning your wedding or a wedding, or maybe you want to renew your vows with you beloved. This site is for you! Weddinggawker

You’re welcome.

Whatever you find at each of these sites you can always pin them to your boards on Pinterest.

P.S. Gawker means; to gape or stare stupidly. Well, yeah…..

So, get on gaping!

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Make Every Day Count – Giveaway


Click to Close (Make Every Day Count - Teen Edition by Max Lucado)

I really enjoy the writings of Max Lucado. And I am thrilled to be able to share with you a book he has written for pre-teens and teens. Make Every Day Count has easy to read, easy to grasp chapters on how to handle various days that you or your teen encounter.

  • Gratitude
  • Peace
  • Faith
  • Grace

These are examples that Max writes about in the book to help pre-teens and teens guide them on how to choose and make each day count for the better during their stress, guilty, drained days.

I really like how Max adds stories and scripture with the chapters as well. He also added a study guide with questions at the end of the book that your pre-teen or teen can do themselves or in a study group.

I am very thankful to Tommy Nelson for allowing me to give away 1 copy!

If you would like to have a copy of Make Every Day Count, please leave me a comment and let me know;

What advice do you give to your pre-teen/teen before they start his/her day?

This contest will end on Friday March 16, 12:00 p.m 

Contest is over! 

 

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Meal Plan – March 12-16

This comic made me laugh! Sometimes I want to charge the princess and 3 jesters for what they don’t eat or don’t finish eating! But, with this weeks’ meal plan, they might just eat what I make every night!

Monday: Penne chicken with veggies. Using zucchini and broccoli as the veggies and a sprinkle or two of Parmesan cheese on top. Simple.

Tuesday: Homemade pizza. I’m going to try Emeril’s basic pizza dough. I have never made pizza dough before, and this recipe looked real basic and simple!

Wednesday: Eat at church night!

Thursday: Tacos. We need something real quick. The princess has a Chorus concert!

Friday: Creamy Chicken TaquitosI’ve always wanted to make taquitos and these look yummy!

What’s on your meal plan this week? 

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Meal Plan: March 5-9

It’s been eons since I last posted a meal plan on here, actually any kind of post. There are various reasons that I can give you, but, let’s just cut to the chase and tell you what our dinner plans are for this week!

Monday: Baked Ravioli. This dish looks so easy and delicious, plus ravioli is one of my favorites!

Tuesday: Good ole’ Roast with potatoes and carrots simmering in a crock-pot all day….need I say more?

Wednesday: Eat at church night! Yay! A night off!

Thursday: Poppy Seed Chicken Pitas This is a quick, simple dinner to put together. Toss a fruit salad together and you have a well-rounded, balanced meal.

Friday: Sesame Chicken I’ve been kind of on a “Martha” kick, and since my kids love this type of Chinese food, this recipe looked like one they would enjoy made at home.

I hope these meals can be useful to you and your family! If you have a meal plan for this week, I would love to hear what you are cooking up in your kitchen for your family!

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